Thursday, February 15, 2007
IT FINALLY HIT ME
I have to be honest. Lately I have felt like a grump, no joy, irritable, crying at almost everything, or the feeling of just wanting to cry for nothing, short tempered, oh the list goes on. I just could not figure out why. Then this morning we did our bible lesson. We studied Mary, Martha, and their brother Lazarus whom Jesus raised from the dead. That is when it finally hit me. I just broke down started crying. Today is Feb 15 and my Dad went to be with the Lord on Feb 18, 2001. The day is approaching and I can feel it. So I basically explained to the boys how I felt and why I had been acting this way. To forgive me.
I am very grateful that I know without a doubt that my Dad is "absent from the body and present with the Lord." I am grateful for the teachings my Dad taught me, for the example he was to me. For his testimony in following the Lord no matter what. For his journals that we cherish. For his "mistakes" in which he tickled us till we could no longer breathe or us girls had to go to the bathroom! :)
I wonder how long these feelings will creep up on my every Feb 18ish.